The importance of Remembering

Just yesterday in the studio, I had a student who is struggling with practicing. Now this happens often because, frankly, none of us like to work. At the very core of the struggle is the fact that nothing worth having comes easily, and so it is work. This can occur many times in a musician's life. We often think of it at the beginning when we are first getting started and everything seems difficult, but really the “plateau” season is often harder. This is generally 2 to 3 years in to having regular lessons and generally hardest for those who excel quickly and get to harder material before they realize this is really going to be work! Yesterday was just one of those days. So a reminder was in order. Remember. Remember what it was like when you first started. Look back and review and play old pieces again just for fun and remember what it was like when you thought those were hard. We laughed about how simple those pieces seemed now. We acknowledged that we could look back a year from now and say the same things about the pieces she has now.12891712_10209127073471539_1638930492760735429_o

This morning in my quiet time I read a verse in Psalms that provoked my thoughts along these lines again - I was in Psalm 78 and I hit verse 42 “They did not remember his power or the day when he redeemed them from the foe”. Did you see that - REMEMBER.  It was as if God had it on a flashing billboard in front of my face - don't miss this Vicki! The KJV says “They remembered not his hand”.  This time remember was in a spiritual context - we need to remember what God has done for us in the past - his power and his hand to deliver us and meet our every need. The Old Testament is full of times where God did an amazing thing, a miracle, and the people stopped to create an altar, or a landmark. They gave it a special name to commemorate or remember what God had done for them. Noah, Abraham, Jacob, and Moses and others all stopped after an amazing move of God and created the landmark for remembrance. Perhaps my favorite because it is referenced in the hymn Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing is from I Samuel 7:12. Samuel prayed to God for protection from the Philistines. After their victory, Samuel took a stone and called it Ebenezer - “Thus far the Lord has helped us.” The history of God’s provision was taught to the next generation by those careful to remember.

rocks-1284076_1920My meditation this morning continued as I “remembered” the verse that speaks of the “ancient landmark” in Proverbs 22:28. The idea is the same - don’t forget what God has done. Don’t move or destroy the landmark/altar that commemorates that memory.

Why the focus on remembering? Because if we don’t look back and see where we have come from we might forget that we are making progress on the journey. If we don't remember, we might believe falsely that we are alone in the journey. If we don't remember, we might forget all the ways God has provided for us in the past, and we might miss the opportunity to rely on Him with our futures. It is in the remembering that we can move forward from the present. It is in the remembering that we can be confident with our next step. What is that you need to be remembering today? What “Ebenezer” should you be careful to recount for the next generation?

Leverage

The word leverage literally means influence or power used to achieve a desired result.  In the financial terms, leverage has to do with taking the access you have to means, i.e. money to capitalize and create much greater return on investment.  This idea of leverage is not a new one, and has had many negative connotations to it over the years because of how closely manipulation can be added to this idea.  I’d love to explore this in a much different light today though because I do believe leverage could also be used positively and in light of our Christian faith, we could even use it in a spiritual context.

Missions and mission work have always been important to me.  My dad has travelled for practically my entire life as a missionary evangelist, and I was privileged to travel with him here in the US and in Australia as I was growing up.  The traditional model of missions was precisely just that, either you had a traveling evangelist, or you had missionaries who uprooted their lives in the US and moved to foreign nations to live life among the indigenous people and to share Christ’s love with them.  As an adult, I have observed a shift in the way that missions is being accomplished in our world today.  Today there is a definite trend to the occupational missionary meaning that a trade or a skill is being utilized on missions fields to allow missionaries to access previously closed countries.  I find this so exciting!  From teachers of English as a Secondary Language, to manufacturing water filters, raising livestock, and growing agricultural crops all are playing a part in the platforms that our current mission projects around the world are currently doing.

For many years, we as a family have personally supported ministry efforts here and abroad. But for sometime now, I have felt a greater pull to do something even more.  Our pastor has often said from the pulpit that we need to figure out ways to leverage our lives for the Kingdom, and so we have been working on doing just that.  Some days it feels like not much is going on and other days I get to see just how God is using the little we have and can do to bless others.

Take for example a return from a short term mission trip in 2012 and how the Lord worked in us to do some new things.  One of the first things that we did when we returned was to decide support one of the girls in the Dominican individually to take care of her needs for a year.  The girls had started a coffee business in 2008 called Cool Chicks Coffee - and they were just 7 and 10 when we got going.  Their small business is mostly word of mouth and sales from our website.  We decided that maybe we could set up a way to bring along some other people who would like to be a help to girls who needed it, by supplying a monthly subscription service, with all the profits going to support one girl at the New Hope girls home.  This started in January 2013.  While this endeavor has never been fully funded, we have always maintained this and we have had several generous backers over the years who have never wavered in their support of both the coffee business and the girls in the Dominican.

Still even with this I thought what more can be done…there must be something more.   How can we leverage something that we already do to make a difference for the Kingdom.  Well in the Dominican Republic coffee is a big deal.   The like it strong, and hot and fresh!  So the next idea we had was create a blend of coffee and call it New Hope and sell those bags completely with all sales going to the girls home.  We sent samples back and forth to the Dominican, letting those in charge taste the varieties and add their own thoughts and taste desires to the mix.  Later that year the New Hope blend was born, and bags of New Hope blend coffee have been sold here in the US and abroad benefitting the girls there at New Hope.

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It has been a blessing over the last few years to be able to send out large orders for sales at local conferences and meetings and this month has been no exception.  We sent out a large package with 20 bags in it just last week and they sold out.  So they re-ordered this week for 3 times as much trusting that once again they will sell out this next weekend.  So that’s what we’ve been doing this week.  Working to coordinate the orders, get the coffee labeled and get it sent out to be in the right place at the right time with 100% of the coffee sales going to benefit New Hope.

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My challenge for you is this - what do you already do, that you could find a way to leverage for His Kingdom?  Maybe you’ve not thought about it before, but I’ve got several instances where this thinking is making an impact on what I do each day.  I am always thinking and asking what more can I do and asking God to reveal it to me.  It’s exciting to see how God uses our time and talents and yes even our businesses for His purposes…what could He be ready for you to do?

Mediocrity has no place here

Written directly across the top of my studio policy is the line “I want my students to be musically proficient. Bottom line - I have no interest in training them to be mediocre musicians.” I don’t really believe at the time I really realized how unusual this particular idea would be in our current culture. I frequently feel as if I’m a little out of the loop, not always connecting with others, because I, myself, and we as a family tend to view life very differently. This is one current way I find myself at odds with many around me and I’m left scratching my head as to why. Now I realize there is a certain irony here about now typing a blog post on mediocrity. A few weeks ago it was the evils of perfectionism…well it’s counterpart is definitely mediocrity. I believe this means there must be a third part to this “series” called balance. Ha! Definitely the daughter of a preacher…I think in groups of threes and always try to come up with some way to alliterate if possible. I see a distinct departure from the pursuit of excellence among families these days in general. When I was growing up, I was hugely competitive and so it became almost second nature to me to work hard for the things I wanted. Whether that was a piano competition, or a spelling bee, or graduating as the Valedictorian. There was the constant evaluation of the “cost” involved to apply myself in any particular direction - meaning mostly time/effort, and sacrifice. Sacrifice included time to spend with friends, time to myself to read or play, or just downtime. Nowadays, there’s no downtime for most families. Our family tends to find ourselves in this same boat - so there’s no condemnation here. With three very active, sports oriented children - we are on the go. We encourage the practice beyond the time spent at “practice”, and trying to work to develop discipline in the kids to work for the things they want. I’m not so sure that what we have in our culture currently is really helping us. In the studio, kids come in weekly that are not prepared in any way shape or form for a lesson. Now listen, I understand that there are weeks, where there is just not enough time. I totally and completely get it. I’m not speaking of the occasional difficulty or occasional missed effort. I’m talking consistent lack of preparation to demonstrate any mastery of skill in any small part. I do my best to encourage the practice, and the prep necessary but I fear it mostly goes in one ear and out the other because frankly, we (humans in general) don’t really enjoy hard work. Mediocre is easy because we don’t have to work at it - everyone can easily be average.

It’s not unusual at one of my recitals for certain students to be mentioned to me as being “so talented”. This is not a wrong statement by any means, but what I wish more people understood was the fact that these students who are “talented” are the ones who consistently week after week continue to work and practice and aren’t satisfied with an “ok”. They are the ones who feel it deeply when a performance doesn’t go well or when they don’t feel like they have made the progress they could have. They are not satisfied with mediocrity, because they know the value of their persistence and hard work. They are not content to just play or sing the right notes, and rhythms, but they add an extra dimension of musicality by working with dynamics, articulation and facial expression. It takes more work and more time and more sacrifice to be above average - but those who do the things necessary to become excellent know it’s worth it.

We miss out on so much when we are settle for average! We all look the same, sound the same, achieve the same and this is not what we were made for. Deep down I think we all want something more than this! I do believe that Biblical principles back me up on this - I can think of verses where we are told to do things with all our might (Ecc. 9:10), Honor the Lord with the “firstfruits” of our substance (Prov. 3:9) or the parable of the talents found in Luke 12. The Bible tells that we will reap what we sow and if we sow with diligence and work hard (another Scriptural principle from Proverbs) we will reap our efforts. It doesn’t take much review in the old testament books of Genesis and Exodus to see the precision with which God ordered Creation, delivered the Israelites from Egypt, and structured the beginnings of the priesthood. Take Ex 28:2-3 as an example and see that even the clothing that God wanted designed for the priests was very specific - “for glory and for beauty”. God also says to “speak to all the skillful, whom I have filled with a spirit of skill”. So God gives skill, and we are to develop and use it for the express purpose of bringing God glory. So average and mediocre doesn’t add up to me in this Biblical economy.

What about outside of this Christian line of thought? In life, we look up to those who achieve greatness. Whether they are on the basketball court, the football field, or in business - we have great respect for those who work hard and who are by no means average. This is not always the smartest person in the room. We all know those who are incredibly smart, but who are not successful because they can’t translate those smarts to daily life. Those who work hard, put in great time and effort in order to achieve goals, and to attain skill are the ones we celebrate. Increased skill separates the mediocre from the excellent. This doesn’t mean these folks are perfect..my goodness the great inventors all have long histories of many failures before they achieved any amount of skill. Great sports players throughout history have persevered through failure in order to attain the level of skill that we all admire. Even businessmen who succeed in business many times go through failures, and loss before they acquire the necessary skill to achieve greatness in their business dealings.

This brings me to my latest idea rolling around in my head. I believe this is why a certain Presidential candidate resonates with us. We don’t want someone who is average or mediocre to lead us. What kind of campaign slogan would that be - “we can all be President” “I’m nothing special”? I mean would anyone seriously vote for someone who was all about the average? I don’t think so…I think we all look for our leaders to be someone who we can admire and who achieves greatness. I know the campaign slogan of “make America great again” has rubbed many the wrong way. But I have to admit - I kind of agree! America is a great nation and always will be because there is no where else in the world that can compare with America and her freedoms - but we aren’t what we once were. By the way - that’s not a political endorsement - just an understanding of what he is saying and an agreement that we should want greatness again!

America has become rather average in her foreign policy. Starting to make deals, where we are on the losing end, making prisoner exchanges which creates more vulnerability for those traveling abroad and thanking nations who kidnap and propagandize our military men is really terrible foreign policy. We don’t take a stand for right and wrong, we give away too much information, weapons, cash, etc to those who care nothing for what we value and we get very little in return. We do not value human life - pre-born, disabled or elderly. We have an economy absolutely in the tank - we are saddling our children with extreme amounts of debt and we just continue to allow the ceiling on that debt to be raised. Our education system is a complete mess. Look no further than the recent undercover videos exposing the cronyism of common core and the major publishing houses for textbooks only highlights the disaster of the current system. Our political parties look the same and vote together even if that violates various campaign promises made to be elected. It is quite frankly disgusting and immoral.

So we have a candidate who stands up and says - let’s make America great again - I can understand and I agree! We have allowed mediocrity to slip in and keep us all where we are now…Excelling means rising above what we do now to become better. Mediocrity says hey I’m ok, you’re ok - we can all get the same color ribbons because we all showed up. Even our kids know this is pretty dumb, because they all know who the winner really is. They keep score in their heads, even if we the adults don’t keep score. We know in our minds this isn’t they way we really want things to be, but we don’t know how to change it. So we look to someone who challenges our way of thinking, and reminds us that greatness is not a bad thing - some people are meant for it…not because they were born rich, but because they worked hard for it. I have great respect for those who work hard and achieve much. I know how hard it is to get the grade, get the diploma, get the degree and to keep working on bettering your skills as you get older. I respect others who do the same.

Our culture is so confused. Nationally, the state of Wisconsin is now stating that students in high school can no longer say certain phrases at high school basketball games - “start the bus” or “airball”. These words and phrases, as well as booing are now actionable offenses by administrators. I guess we are just trying to make sure everyone feels good after a game.

Internationally, the Olympic committee has recently ruled that transgender athletes (pre-surgery) should be allowed to compete with women. That’s right we really won’t have women’s sports any longer because women will now compete with men. Our bodies are designed differently, our strengths are different, and now we are expected to compete with that. It’s infuriating - if we want to do that - have men and women all compete against each other - then ban the “category” of “women’s” sports or “mens” sports. But can you even imagine the underhanded dealings that are going to take place with nations that are far less principled than we are. I have no doubt that it will serve their purposes quite well, to have someone compete who is not truly “transgender” just for the sole purpose of collecting a win. We have seen all kinds of manipulations in the past - nothing at all will surprise me here.

Again nationally, and perhaps most dangerously, we have a complete lack of clear teaching on the constitution, the branches of government, etc and it’s created a terrifying combination of fresh new voters with no depth of knowledge of past history or present legislation in our school systems. A recent non scientific poll stated that approximately 10% of those polled in the millennial age group thought Judge Judy was a supreme court justice. If this is even remotely true it is quite a scary thought. The problem is these same young adults don’t and won’t realize the separation of powers that is inherent in the way our governmental institutions were set up. They are not being taught that executive actions are a run around a Congress that is setup to be a balance to an executive branch that runs pell mell toward whatever they please. They don’t see the dangers that allowing this kind of behavior to continue because they don’t know their history and history has taught us that absolute power (anything that can’t be balanced by another external force) corrupts absolutely. This is how we end up with a dictator instead of a president. Without an understanding of history, they will have no idea that the idea of capitalism and a free market economy is so much more favorable for a nation than socialism. They have no basis of economic understanding and so when someone says that college will be free, and everyone should get a higher minimum wage and we should tax the rich more so everyone can have nice things- they think hey that sounds great! They can’t see the “danger” signs flashing that the economy will collapse because business cannot sustain such a burden. They only see the benefit of the here and now. These are the future voters and they have been deliberately mislead, and not taught the details of our history and government. It’s really appalling.

Mediocrity exists because our vision is small and our wills are weak. When we sacrifice our futures on the altar of what we want right now, we will remain average and never find our true passion and purpose through excellence.

Stretching & Cliff Jumping

If I look back over the entirety of the year 2015, I am filled with awe at how the Lord has stretched me and our family throughout the year. I started the year filled with apprehension about getting our homeschool daughter graduated, and all her work finished, and getting her into a college with funding, etc. etc. I look back and thank the Lord for his sustaining grace through some days of unknowns, and turning things into beautiful endings and new beginnings. There is a great amount of doubt and anxiety involved in doing things for the first time. For whatever reason, when I can’t see the end of something I have trouble blazing the trail ahead without feeling a level of concern that I will be a huge failure.  Irony of ironies, as I am typing I am also texting - either a sign of genius or madness, you decide - and my friend expresses her season of stretching  - tingles!  I hadn't said a word about what I was currently doing - just checking in and seeing how she and her family were doing since we hadn't spoken in a while.  I couldn't believe when she described how she was being stretched .. whoa!  She and I shared common feelings that the stretching brings and most of it's uncomfortable frankly - but we experience these things so we can encourage others - don't forget that! So 2015 was a stretching year both for myself and for my family. We were very inwardly focused for a few months just handling the daily routine of work, travel for my husband, and getting her work finished, diploma ordered, and a graduation celebration organized. I also had two seniors graduating from the studio and needed to organize two different studio recitals a month early because of major conflicts in May with all events. So the first half of the year seemed to be internal stretch. God allowed us to begin working again with a small group of young people in our church - we love singles and young couples who are just getting married lives started. It’s an exciting age, and they have so much energy and passion for the things of the Lord. So we started working with this group during the same time frame.

Summer quickly came and rest was so wonderful - I look at the calendar and see lots of space and we spent a lot of time brainstorming with our small group how to grow the group, how to impact our community and to encourage our church family. This led to some big ideas which led to more of the stretching we discussed, as we launched the ideas of not just a 3 on 3 tournament for our community outreach and a mission project, as well as another men’s oriented event that had not been tried by our church before. I began to feel that God was calling me to really dive in and be more than I was at this point and I have already written how I was challenged to make a priority of time and space with the Lord in the mornings before my day ran off and away from me.

Starting in August, I spent dedicated time in prayer for these really big events - again events that had not been done and no idea how they would turn out - and to pray that God would use me to impact His kingdom. We also took the whole family and spent our Thanksgiving day serving a meal with a great group of folks to a side of our community that doesn’t have much. God is crossing our paths in significant and life changing ways with people that we would not have ordinarily met or become friends with in our normal way of life. It’s been life altering and the stretching continues.

From here, I had also known for some time that God was directing me to lead a trip to my favorite ministries in the Dominican Republic. I have a heart for what God is doing on this island, and I have people who are impacted through our past trips who want to go and be a part. But honestly I have dragged my feet - the idea of team leader is too much - too big a thing to be prepared for, to be in charge of, to be leading. But I submitted and began the process of the planning and preparation to put this trip together. God has continued to confirm and open doors for this trip - I am so excited to see what happens. He also began to put in my heart my desire to do this trip with our entire family. That’s right all 5 of us on mission together this summer. Wow…that’s a God sized dream that we are trusting Him to do for us.

Also during this time, internally I began to feel like that God was calling me to do some things that I haven’t pursued personally too much. When the kids are little, and the days are busy, it’s hard to think creatively and to pursue dreams and desires that we have. But as the kids age, and as we learn to manage our time in different ways, I have found that there is indeed time and space. The next obstacle then is our fears and doubts. What if what I have created - music, books, blogs, websites, etc.. isn’t received well or is criticized. I’ve always compared it to being such a personal process to share our creations with others - you want them to think your “baby” is beautiful - so in fear and doubt, we hide our “babies” and keep them to ourselves because we doubt what God is telling us to do.

So here we are already 12 days into 2016, and I can see that I’m done stretching - we have moved straight on into leaping off the edge…I’m cliff jumping and I’m scared to death. I am ready to move forward without holding back what it is that God gives me to do and to say. I am ready to trust Him completely with the results - good and bad, and just continue to be persistent and to continue improving. I have joked in previous blogs that I have so many words in my head and so I’ve decided to start writing so I can get them down on paper. One of my goals this week was that as I opened the studio up, I wanted to protect a certain portion of time and dedicate to writing. I am working on several projects right now, but sometimes there are ideas that just need to be written while they are popping around inside my brain. I set a goal to hit 1500 words a day during the week while I’m teaching. Yesterday was my first day and I went way beyond 2000! Today I’m over my goal again…so it looks like perhaps I set my sights too low.

So I am sitting and blogging here today during my time frame Ive set aside - and Mandisa is playing in the background - Waiting for Tomorrow - if you don't know it - take a listen.  I can't help but feel that God just continues to reinforce the things I am thinking and doing.  Maybe what I write doesn’t connect with anyone out there, but it’s just cathartic to release the words out there for me. That’s ok with me..I just have to take my next step in obedience and jump off that cliff, knowing that my “baby” is good enough for my Lord - since He has called me to obedience. What about you - have you been given a dream/desire but something is holding you back from pursuing it fully? Don’t let fear and doubt cripple you - God wants us to live full and overflowing lives for His glory. Come on - we are cliff jumping - won’t you join me?2015-09-04 15.31.05

Perfectionism is a Joy Killer

Perfectionism is a joy killer and a creative persons achilles heel! Twice this last week this issue reared it’s ugly head.  My problem is that I so readily recognize this problem, because I have it too.  Look up the word Perfectionist in the dictionary and I'm beyond sure my picture is next to it!  Over achiever extraordinaire - I have always struggled with perfectionism.  In school, in piano performance, life in general and its a heavy burden to bear.  The problem is that perfectionism robs us of the joy that we typical have in the things we like to do.  When I try to perfect a piece I’m playing at the piano, or a creative composition then the fun of playing the piano or being creative has now been hijacked and I’m left with frustration and and a lack of desire to finish a project I’ve started.

So when this happens in the studio I try as much as I can to nip it in the bud because I know the end result is frustration and most of the time the thing that happens next is quitting.  It’s unfortunate that the end of result of trying to get something perfected is ultimately failure because we quit too soon.

This doesn’t just affect young people - it can hit older ones also - for example this week I had both a 14 year old girl and a 56 year old lady struggling with perfectionism and feeling the ultimate frustration in the process.  The 14 year old is bearing the brunt of needing to achieve A+’s in school and it’s spilling into other areas of her life in the process.  She’s also spending hours playing basketball for her school team, and keeping her high grades in the process.  So the thing that suffers here is the piano and the voice lessons.  Since she doesn’t get a grade per se she lets that thing go the most.  So this semester we drilled it down as simple as we could so that she could enjoy the Christmas recital with a couple things to play.  The problem is though that as soon as you simplify the perfectionism only gets worse…It’s difficult to convince her that she’s only hurting herself both now and in the long term.  I have tried desperately to get her to realize that the music practice can be a safe haven or an emotional outlet so to speak to help her relax after all the pressures she feels at school and to use it as a way to unwind.  But she can’t see that right now, she just sees it as one more thing she has to perfect.  She can’t seem to stop herself and that makes me sad.

The other issue is really one and the same - stress affects my 56 year old student at work and at home.  She has an adult child and children that have moved back in with her and instead of her practice time being in piece and quiet, it’s now mixed in with a lot of background noise and chatter and singing along with her playing.  She’s trying to get comfortable playing for others, but she is allowing her perfectionism to interfere with the sheer joy of playing some songs that others will recognize and sing along too.  It’s creating more pressure in her life when what she really needs is some downtime and relaxation to be able to find time to enjoy the process.  I tried so desperately to get her to come and play a few Christmas carols that she was playing well at the nursing home with us.  The nursing home is such a safe place to perform especially for those who struggle with anxiety in performing in front of others.  The residents so enjoy the attention that our visit brings and the joy of music can be shared with others.  Most of the time they don’t care how the music sounds - they care mostly that we stopped long enough to spend time with them.

This has also happened frequently in the studio when we are working on compositions.  Everyone at some point believes it’s not “good enough”.  Or that they can’t create new things.  This is ridiculous - everyone is capable of creating new things and the creative process is hugely fun and satisfying.  Not everyone is good at it right away, but you have to be willing to start somewhere and gradually get better.   I mean that’s kind of the point, to learn something new we have to start with something we can’t already do and we can’t expect it to be perfect the first time we try it.  Working through how to make things better on one composition, helps to make it better for the next time and the next time after that.  I share with my students who struggle with composition whether at the beginning of the process or sometime in the middle when the ideas run out about an article I read once from a prolific sculptor.  He was asked how he had come to create so many masterpieces in his lifetime.  He stated that he didn’t wait until he was inspired, he would make himself create everyday even if he didn’t have any ideas.  Sometimes you just have to go and do it even when you don’t feel like it because you never know when a great idea will come!  But perfectionism can kill this process - the perfectionist thinks the idea isn’t good enough, all the really cool songs have already been created, it sounds too much like something else, etc etc.  The inevitable end of this thinking is to have partial bits and pieces but never a whole.   I’ve composed a lot of songs in my lifetime but I never quite finish too many because I don’t think it’s just right and I continue to make changes instead of just finishing for now.  SO I now encourage my students to finish "for now".  Make it complete and come back at a later time if you still feel it needs improving of editing.  At least you complete and have a finished product.

What’s the life lesson here?  Ultimately - don’t let perfectionism steal your joy!  The fun can be removed from any activity that we encounter in life when we allow perfectionism to overrun the sheer joy of being able to do the activity.  Is playing the piano or singing something that must be practiced and worked at - absolutely!  Does it have to be done perfectly to be enjoyed?  absolutely not.  At the end of the day we practice, we rehearse, we study, we breathe, we exercise, we vocalize, and we do all we can.  When it’s time to perform, it’s time to get out of our heads and enjoy the process of sharing something beautiful with others and enjoy the fact that we have the ability to even do what we do!  Relax and make beautiful music - even if it’s not perfect.  The only way I fhave ound around the perfectionism for myself is to let my mistakes happen and let everyone know around me that I made one (in practice or rehearsal) and I call them “jazz chords”.  I try to lighten up the desire to beat myself up over a mistake, by laughing at myself and giving it a name.  I mean jazz chords really do sound like mistakes most of the time right?  So I jokingly make myself relax and enjoy the process, and through in a few jazz chords on purpose (or do I) so that I can continue the process of having fun and enjoying the very thing that brings me joy - even if it’s not perfectly perfect.

This should hold true for you as well - whether you are making a meal for your family and friends, decorating your home based on a pinterest pin, or throwing a party.  I don’t care if you are presenting a project to your classroom, designing a game to be played with kids or just trying to do the myriad of things we try to do in a day.  Do things to the best of your ability, prepare, prepare, prepare -but then let go and enjoy.  It doesn’t really matter if the Christmas tree is really perfect for a photo shoot does it?  I mean if the kids are happy and fed, and enjoy being home isn’t that all we are really trying to do?    My daughter and I had this discussion around the tree just last week.  I had just gotten done mentally throwing my hands in the air and thinking well that’s as good as it gets…I just have to move on and maybe next year the tree will look better.  I sat down, and she said - I think that’s the best Christmas tree we have ever had.  What?!?  I laughed and told her what I was just thinking and she laughed too.

Stop putting so much pressure on yourselves to be perfect - it steals your joy and no one else realizes or sees things the way you do - you never know - they might already think it’s perfect!

Introspection and Affirmation

I haven’t sat down to write in a while. It’s been a busy season for us as a family and as individuals. We have had so many varied and different things going on that my writing has had to take a very far backseat. But this week is my week of rest. Purposely scheduled and really a necessity for me. I am so thankful for the SPACE this gives me to write, to think, to create, to clean and the myriad of things that have been stashed in my backseat. Speaking of backseats..I should add cleaning the car out to the list of things I need to do too! This time of year always causes me a great deal of introspection. I know that’s normal, but I feel it a bit more keenly this year, I think because my oldest has reached adulthood. She passed some milestones this year that when she was a baby seemed so very far away, and yet here we are, and now I see her as a grown person pursuing her life and dreams and remember what 18 was like for me. Filled with hope and bright eyes for a future full of joy and happiness. So as I look back, I see the joy and tears, the hope and fear, laughter and crying and see a beautiful tapestry of life. But it has passed by so very quickly, and I am gripped with wanting to share with young moms today to hold on to these moments. I remember so clearly each stage of my life, waiting anxiously to get to the next stage. In high school, wanting desperately to get to college. In college, wanting desperately to be finished and newly married, starting a new family and racing off to live life. So incredibly fast time rolls and as we pursue living we can sometimes wish our lives away. As a young mom, I couldn’t wait until I could sleep all night again - I remember the overwhelming lack of sleep and being completely spent. I remember the overwhelming fatigue and pressure to get it right. And then just when you feel like you can start to handle life again, number 2 sweet baby arrives and you are plunged back underwater again - only with added weight because there is zero rest. Then if you are completely brave or foolhardy - you pick which descriptor you want to use - God grants you the unbelievable privilege of adding another beautiful child. But now you are completely outnumbered, outflanked and overwhelmed. If you were drowning before, you just wonder if there’ll ever be a time for you to be you again.

Sweet moms of little ones - can I just tell you that you will be you and you will be a stronger version of you. Raising children is not for the weak - it’s the greatest calling you will ever receive and you must be passionate about doing your best and leaving God to fill in the gaps. But in the midst of the overwhelming daily routine that you are experiencing right now, I want you to find the joy and savor the memories. This time is so short in the big scheme of things. The moments pass into days, the days that were just yesterday are faded into the landscape of the years behind us and it gives me such pause. I look back and wish I had done things differently - relaxed and enjoyed and released the pressure and guilt of a perfect life, with things perfectly done, and perfectly ordered. Thank goodness I didn't have the added guilt of Pinterest and Facebook to guilt me into further futile efforts to create the perfect home. My goodness, the pressure is extreme for mamas right now. Please my friends I believe you have the greatest calling ever and a wonderful opportunity stands open before you even now.

If you are still reading - thanks for sticking with me - I promise I have a point even more than slow down and enjoy your babies. You see the last 90 days have been some of the greatest of my entire life as far as consistent daily walk with Jesus. I have always felt like at each stage of my life it would get easier. I would just have the time and space I desired to really spend at Jesus feet. I’ve been able to have times of snatches here and there for years and spent time in prayer for various ministries but always felt the desire for more. So the Lord grabbed my attention 90 days ago and wouldn’t let me go until I made the full on commitment to do everything I could do to create space in my life for that close time with my Lord. I will not walk you through the difficulties and the things the Devil has thrown into our path as I chose to make this very conscious effort to deny myself sleep and instead pursue time with my Lord. That is it’s own post all it’s own! But in my pursuit of space, I have found that allowing myself that 2 hour window each morning has been filled with Bible study, continuing my reading of the Bible through that has languished and suffered up until this point. I started in Psalms and just finished Acts this morning. My prayer list has lengthened and prayers have been answered and specified. I have started memorizing scripture again, which is creating moments of meditation as I try to get my brain to get it! I have studied Bible maps to understand missionary journeys, and the paths Jesus took during His earthly ministry. I have read books on prayer and just spent unhurried, and precious time with my Savior. It has changed me and I pray that this habit will never leave me. I have taken a couple days over the past few months to sleep in and assume that I will catch time later in my day to spend, but the reality is there is always too much to do to allow that space. Unhurried and unpressured and open. So I continue on before the sun rises, while the stars and planets loom large and I thank the Lord for His creation and the beauty of the sunrise and the opportunity to experience it in the quiet with Him.

This morning during this time, I was reading a beautiful book on prayer and the recounted story of DL Moody’s fantastic ministry and the revivals he was enabled to lead. The story was specific of one woman’s prayer during a season of sickness where she was confined to be homebound and was heartsick that she couldn’t do more for the Lord’s work during that time. She found instead a greater calling to a deeper prayer time. She spent time in prayer for her church, for the services, and for salvation. She read a story in a journal about Mr. Moody and the work he was doing in the United States and she prayed that he would come to London and preach in their church. She prayed daily, for over a year without any sign that her prayers would be answered. Then one day her sister came home and told her that Mr. Moody had preached in their church that very morning. She prayed that afternoon and fasted, and that evening many people were saved during that service. During the course of the next ten days, quite unknown and unplanned to anyone but this dear lady a revival broke out in their church and community, and over 400 people were saved. The Lord allowed this lady’s prayer to be answered in a mighty way through Mr. Moody’s ministry in that church and no one but God and this lady knew about what set things in motion.

This got me to thinking that it’s not just those who are ill and homebound that can draw inspiration and encouragement from these words, but my thoughts were specifically what could God do with an army of young mamas who may be homebound with little ones but who would dedicate themselves to praying for those who are out doing the ministry they themselves might long for! You may be homebound for various reasons - whether it’s because you are home with your children all day, or perhaps you have a child sick. Or you may be a mama who works and is a mama who has no extra time for ministry - there are any number of reasons you may have to not always be able to participate in various opportunities your church has for you.

  • Can’t make it to church Sunday morning? Pray for the Pastor and church staff to be filled with the Spirit and for ears to be opened to the truths of God’s Word.
  • Can’t make it to church Sunday night or Wednesday night? - pray for those who work with the children who are there as they study Bible verses, or learn Missionary stories, and the trajectory of their life’s story is shaped.
  • Can’t visit the sick or shut in or widows? - pray for them by name, and ask God to heal, encourage and meet needs.
  • Can’t bake the cookies or the muffins or the meal for the list going out? pray for the family that is receiving the meal, or the visit with the cookies.
  • Can’t make the women’s meeting? pray for the women attending and those who are leading that they walk with God and are lead by His Spirit.
  • Can’t teach a Connect Group, Small group, Sunday school class? Pray for the groups that are meeting and those needs in each of those small groups. Pray for encouragement and spiritual growth for those leading those groups.
  • Can’t sing in the choir, or play and instrument? Pray for those that do - that they dedicate their talents to Jesus for His use and His glory.
  • Can’t work in the nursery on a consistent basis? Pray for those who do - that they stay healthy and well, and that they show those little ones Jesus’ love.
  • Can’t help with that community event or ministry opportunity? Pray for the event to be a success to reach the lost and to join in community with those who are disenfranchised or unengaged and who need Jesus.
  • Can’t go on a short term mission trip, or to the mission field? Pray for those who are on the field already serving - learn their names and their stories, pray for those who do go on those trips that they are spiritually ready for what they will encounter and ask that Satan be bound from destroying the work.

There are so many things that for a short season of life we can’t do and you may feel as I did that you should be doing more. But my friends think of all you can do if you will allow God to empower the words of your lips and your prayers to heaven in petition for those who are now in their season of doing. Oh the power you could wield from your home, on your knees, before The Almighty, All powerful, All knowing and ever present God. You have no idea how strong you are young mom! Be encouraged today - there is so much you really can do for the Kingdom! Enjoy these moments they pass fast - cuddle your bundles, play with your toddlers, bake with your preteens, and play games with your teens, and pray as you have never prayed before and watch the God of Heaven move with power!

Politics, church life, and friendships

I was recently listening to a radio news broadcast and heard a really good explanation about why we have such a plethora of low information voters in our American culture today. It was really a very insightful conversation with a couple people when one of them mentioned that perhaps it was not that people were necessarily low information but that they were receiving their news and information from only one source. I basically stopped listening at this point and let my thoughts run down along those lines, and thought about how much I agreed with what was said. When we consult only CNN, or MSNBC or FOX we get a decidedly biased viewpoint that usually already agrees with our own. Rarely do we seek out information or news from sources that we know generally do not line up with our ideology. We feel a certain comfort when we receive information that continues to support what we already think. The problem with this is that we get a very limited swath of information and it never really challenges what we already believe we know. If we really want to get a big picture view, we have to get away from what’s comfortable and what supports what we already believe, and seek out information from the other sources that exist. We can get a more accurate picture of the “real” news and the “real” happenings around the world, if we seek out a variety of news sources and viewpoints. But most Americans will not do that, because we as humans like to have support for our firmly held beliefs and anytime they are challenged we feel personally threatened rather then welcome the opportunity to think deeply. In this time and age, we can have differing opinions on many topics, not the least of which are our first and second amendment rights, illegal immigration, government funding of planned parenthood, taxes, etc etc. etc.  I used to hide people from my timeline that posted differing opinions than mine on my timeline.  I didn't like to read it because it would get me riled up about what they had to say.  But this is really the wrong reaction - I need to know that other people who are my friends, or former classmates, or people I have met along the way think differently than I do - nothing at all wrong with that!

Unfortunately, this myopic tendency sets up a perfect storm atmosphere in our culture. In our information age and the amount of technology we all have at our fingertips today, we can find any amount of resources to continue to support what we already believe. We rarely get outside of our comfort zones and seek out contrary beliefs. As human beings this is a natural propensity to prop us up and make us feel good. We hurt our growth as individuals, and we affect the course of our nation though, when we become myopic in our viewpoints and beliefs. We should actively seek out others who think differently and talk differently than we do so that we can engage and hopefully inform others who think and believe differently.

This line of thought continued though for me down the line of our church life. We remain so comfortable among those who think like us and look like us. We are not challenged too much beyond our normal limits and we are welcomed and feel good about ourselves and our views of life in general. We have been recently challenged in our church family to seek out friends from among our community that we would not normally interact with. This is not in any attempt for manipulation but in genuine interest of friendships and sharing Christ. If we won't get beyond the walls of our churches and develop friendships with the outside world, then we will never ever reach the world with our message of Christ’s saving grace. We hear words like “engaging our culture” but what does it really mean? I think just the same as it means for us politically - get away from our comfort zone and get among people who challenge what we think and so that we in turn can communicate and challenge them in return. Don’t mistake what I am saying - we are not to go out and debate our viewpoints, and our message - we are to literally converse - have conversations that matter -with other people who may not like what we have to say.

We have to get beyond our comfort zones and our small boxes and walk out among those who need to hear what we have to say, not be among those who already agree with our mesasge. If it’s important in our American culture of politics, how much more important is it to our church today.